Noteworthy News Articles on Mental Health Topics, December 11- , 2005
Steve Lopez, Los Angeles Times- 12/11/2005 He's 42 and bearded, thin as a dry twig, hands cuffed behind him. When he gets out, he says, he wants to play baseball, be a rock star and get a paper route. "Just call me Mickey Vin Priestly," he says, making up a name and telling me it's "very miserable" on the seventh floor of the Los Angeles County Jail. "Everybody keeps trying to poison me." After we talk, deputies march the schizophrenic inmate back to his cell and lock the door behind him. Mickey Vin Priestly, in custody since September on an attempted robbery rap, immediately begins pacing his concrete box and talking to the walls. On the same block of Tower 1, one prisoner is banging on a door with thunderous blows. Another man stands trance-like in front of his door for all to see, buck naked. The doors and windows of other cells are plastered with warnings to jail staff: Kicker. Biter. Spitter. Suicide Watch. "I run the biggest mental hospital in the country," Sheriff Lee Baca often says. That's a bit misleading, since only a small percentage of inmates actually need inpatient hospital services. But with roughly 2,000 inmates who've been identified by the jail as having mental issues, about two-thirds of whom are in for nonviolent crimes, Baca has a point. People are locked up for being mentally ill, essentially, because there's nowhere else to put them. The jail is a dumping bin, teeming with inmates the jailers are ill-equipped and too understaffed to help, and sometimes can't even protect. On Nov. 16, 35-year-old Chadwick Shane Cochran's mental problems cost him his life. A drifter whose friends said he suffered from paranoia and delusions, Cochran was brought in out of the rain in October by an elderly Covina woman who let him stay in a trailer behind her house. When he said he was afraid that people were out to get him, she gave him a revolver, in the misguided belief that it would make him feel safe. Instead, it got him arrested for being a felon in possession of a gun. Cochran's mental history landed him in the Twin Towers, along with other sick inmates. But he wasn't as sick as some of the others, and since there's just not room to segregate every mentally ill prisoner, Cochran got transferred over to the hard-core Men's Central facility, which resembles a dungeon. There, deputies had the bright idea of stashing Cochran in a windowless holding room with 30 other prisoners and no supervision. Apparently thinking Cochran was a snitch, two gang members tortured him for up to 30 minutes, then stomped and beat him to death. One of the alleged killers was awaiting trial on murder charges and the other on kidnap and carjacking charges. Cochran was the eighth person killed in Los Angeles County jails over the last two years. "He was a fish out of water," Baca said of Cochran. "These inmates were sharks, and he was in the shark tank." An unguarded shark tank. Overcrowding or not, there's no acceptable explanation for taking a nonviolent offender fresh out of the mental wings and tossing him into an unsupervised room full of heavyweight thugs. County supervisors, with good reason, are tired of hearing Baca's explanations and promises of improvement. But they should pay more attention to one of the sheriff's main points: In a better system, Cochran wouldn't have been in jail. "We would have taken the gun, booked it away, and trotted him off to a mental treatment area in the community somewhere, so he could get the problem addressed," he told me. But there's currently no provision for such a thing. In fact, all mental health services are in absurdly short supply. The state mental hospitals are ridiculously understaffed and often chaotic and dangerous. Community clinics are few and far between. Emergency room beds for acute mental problems are in such short supply, patients often end up back on the streets and, sooner or later, back in jail. The jailhouse, in fact — despite the horrors and staffing problems — is one of the few places where mental health care is available. The county Department of Mental Health runs a quasi hospital, dispenses meds and offers psychotherapy. "My comment on running the largest mental hospital in the country is a plea for help," says Baca. None of this lets the sheriff off the hook, of course. If he knows he's got people in his jail who shouldn't be there, the least he could do is keep them safe even if he can't provide the kind of help they need. But it's not often that you hear a law enforcement official asking, as Baca is, that prosecutors and courts de-emphasize criminal behavior in consideration of the cause of that behavior. He wants greater use of drug and mental health courts to divert people into drug rehab and mental health programs rather than jails. He also wants more people scouring the streets "and looking under bridges" for homeless, mentally ill and substance-abusing people, steering them toward help before they find trouble. Proposition 63 money, which will start flowing in January, will make some of this possible, and it's about time. What I've learned this year about mental illness is that there are no cures, and there are no easy fixes, either, for a system that's been shamefully neglected for decades. But I've learned, too, that lives can be reclaimed, and that when the sheriff keeps reminding us he runs the biggest mental hospital in the country, it's meant to shock and embarrass us. And it should. Woes Mount for California State Mental Hospital Rong-Gong Lin II, Los Angeles Times- 12/11/2005 On the eve of a long-scheduled federal inspection, the state's largest mental hospital is contending with a recent surge in violence — two patient homicides in the last three months. Dwight Wenholz, a 43-year-old long-term patient at Patton State Hospital in San Bernardino was found dead on a bathroom floor late Wednesday, just days before the inspectors' visit, which is set to begin Monday. He had been choked and slammed to the floor, police said. Samuel Gomez Galindo, 33, a paranoid schizophrenic patient, was arrested and booked on suspicion of murder. He later tried to commit suicide in jail, his family said. In September, Robert Lucas, 50, was choked and stabbed in the neck. Two patients, 32-year-old Jason Porter and 43-year-old Tom Smith, have been charged with his murder. The slayings were the first since 1994 at Patton, which predominantly houses severely mentally ill people referred by the criminal courts. Galindo's most recent criminal offense before entering Patton was possession of a weapon while in jail. Smith had been convicted of assault with intent to commit rape and Porter of attempted murder. The killings come at a time when California's mental hospitals face heightened scrutiny from the U.S. Justice Department. In the past few years, the agency's investigators have issued reports highly critical of two other state hospitals, Napa and Metropolitan, in Norwalk. Among other things, they found that staffers did not do enough to prevent patients from harming themselves or one another. Metropolitan also was found to have misdiagnosed, overmedicated and improperly restrained some patients. Patton's inspection is part of a systemwide probe that has caused tension between state and federal officials. "I'm not nervous about the inspection per se," said Patton Executive Director Octavio Carlos Luna. "They are going to come in and they're reviewing the process of how we provide treatment…. "I am concerned," he added, "that we have had these two tragic events, these two homicides, in three months." Luna said the slayings were unrelated, having occurred in separate units in different parts of the facility. But he said both occurred at night, between about 10:45 and 11 p.m., about the time nurses and psychiatric technicians switch shifts. During the switch, nurses are still on the wards but are busy exchanging information on patients. "The question is if they were properly dispersed through the unit like they normally would" be, Luna said. He said bathrooms are checked every 15 minutes and that Wenholz was found during such a check. Luna declined to discuss the death further, citing pending police and hospital investigations. Police said there had been a long-running dispute between Galindo and Wenholz, who had been committed to Patton after making bomb threats. Galindo's relatives questioned the hospital's supervision. His sister, Rachel, said in an interview that her brother had been asking for at least a year to transfer out of Patton. Barring release to a halfway house, he wanted to be transferred back to Atascadero State Hospital on the Central Coast, where he had been previously, she said. Family members said he was more able to focus on a work program there and received better supervision. He didn't have problems with fights at Atascadero, Rachel Galindo said. But at Patton things were different, Galindo told his family. "He was letting us know he was having some problems with some guys there," Rachel Galindo said. "He knows when the anger is getting the best of him. He tries to take whatever precautions. He kept letting them know that he wanted a transfer, but no one did anything about it." Recently, Galindo had said he'd stopped going out into a yard with other patients and playing basketball because "there would be guys who wanted to fight," his sister said. During a visit just before the slaying, Galindo asked his father, Raymond, to pray with him over a Bible. "I visited him last Wednesday and he said, 'Dad, pray for me. Pray for protection over me,' " his father said. "I had asked him, 'Son, you need to open up....You need to be more open and share things.' " Rachel Galindo said she was shocked when she heard about the accusations against her brother. "It's tragic," she said. "I wish we would have known more about what was going on." In general, Luna said, the hospital depends on staff and patients to notify officials when there is a problem in the units. Luna said he held a monthly meeting recently with a council of patients and urged them to notify nurses of any concerns, including when they saw that a patient was being picked on. Luna said crowding at Patton has made the situation more difficult. But in last week's slaying, at least, it didn't appear to be a factor, he said. Wenholz's unit had 41 patients and was licensed for 40. Even though the hospital is licensed for 1,287 beds, it has about 1,500 patients — a problem that is expected to ease as the newly built Coalinga State Hospital takes in more patients. Overall, Luna said, "It is more difficult for the individual patient to find quiet time, to find their own particular space, compared to the past." Healing: Wounds Linger (Literally) After Marital Strife Nicholas Bakalar, New York Times- 12/13/2005 Hostile interactions in a marriage may slow the healing of wounds, a new report says. The research involved 42 healthy married couples ages 22 to 77. It appears in the December issue of Archives of General Psychiatry. Subjects were admitted to a hospital for two 24-hour stays. During the first, a nurse drew blood and attached a vacuum pump to each subject's arm, raising a blister. Then the couples were instructed to discuss something about themselves that they wanted to change, soliciting and offering support to their spouses. During the second stay, they were asked to try to resolve one or two marital conflicts. The researchers rated the level of hostility in the marriages based on the couples' behavior during the two interactions. Blisters healed more slowly after the conflict than they did after the more supportive discussion for couples with both high and low levels of hostility. For very hostile couples, the wounds healed at only 60 percent of the rate of low-hostility couples. "Bad relationships are bad for you," said Janice Kiecolt-Glaser, the lead author and a professor of psychiatry at Ohio State University, "but a bad marriage is particularly risky, because your major source of support becomes your major source of stress, and you can't easily look for a replacement." The scientists identified a mechanism for the finding. Levels of cytokines, the secreted proteins that have an essential role in healing, were much higher at the wound for couples with low levels of hostility than for those with high levels. At the same time, cytokine levels in the blood, where their inflammatory properties can increase the risk for heart disease and other diseases, were higher in couples with high hostility than in those with low. To Survive Stress, Keep It Brief Cecilia Capuzzi Simon, Washington Post- 12/13/2005 To understand the difference between good stress and bad stress, said neuroscientist Robert Sapolsky, consider the fact that a roller coaster ride lasts for three minutes, not three days. "There's a reason that we'll pay money to go on a roller coaster and be terrified" for a brief period, said the Stanford University professor. This kind of stressful episode can be invigorating and empowering, he said. Blood circulates better, senses are heightened, memory sharpens, energy peaks and chemicals producing pleasure increase in the brain. But if that same stress continues for an extended period, Sapolsky said, the body continues straight downhill. If video games like "Mercenaries'' or "Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas'' are on your kids' Christmas list -- or on your own -- consider this: A recent study suggests that playing violent video games actually changes brain function and desensitizes chronic players to real-life violence. "When people become used to violence, it reduces their inhibitions against behaving aggressively,'' said University of Michigan psychology and communication studies professor Brad Bushman, who co-authored the study along with researchers at the University of Missouri and the University of North Carolina. "I've had people say, 'I play violent video games and I've never killed anyone.' Well, very few people have ever killed anyone, but I want to know how do you treat your parents? How do you treat your siblings? How do you treat your teachers at school?'' The study will be published in a coming edition of the Journal of Experimental Psychology. Emily Singer, Los Angeles Times- 12/15/2005 WHEN Haley Mack of Long Beach participated in a clinical trial testing new treatments for depression last November, she was told she would get either a real medicine or a placebo. But Mack was sure she was taking the real pill. She could do things that had been very difficult since she was diagnosed with clinical depression — she could shower and get dressed, and she actually looked forward to going to the clinic. "It had been difficult to look forward to things at all," she says. At the end of the trial, Mack was surprised to find out she had, in fact, been taking a fake pill. "My boyfriend joked . . . that I should go back on the placebo," she says. "He thought I seemed much better." Mack's boyfriend may have a point. Sham treatments, medical science is learning, can have a powerful effect on health. Researchers have found that administering sugar pills and saline injections can ameliorate pain, depression and anxiety. Such treatments can reduce tremors and other symptoms in Parkinson's patients, lower blood pressure in those with hypertension and open up airways in people who suffer from asthma. Researchers have even shown that sham knee surgery can alleviate arthritis pain and sham chest surgery, angina pain. Now doctors want to harness that power as a tool for treatment — without resorting to trickery. This is not as far-fetched as it sounds. Scientists are learning more about the response of the brain to placebos and about the various elements of treatment that help a patient feel better. Say you go to the doctor with a headache, and your doctor secretly gives you a candy mint rather than an aspirin. That fake pill gives you an expectation that you will feel better — and the so-called placebo effect kicks in, and you do. If that were all the placebo effect was about, doctors would be stuck. Deceptively prescribing a candy instead of medicine to a patient in pain is not considered ethical behavior. Luckily, other aspects of the doctor's visit — such as the whole doctor-patient interaction — play a role in placebo healing as well. "The response to placebo is not just a response to an inactive pill, it's a response to the entire treatment situation," says Dr. Walter Brown, a psychiatrist at Brown University in Rhode Island. "It's everything: going to an expert, talking about the problem, getting a diagnosis and a plausible treatment." Researchers are studying the best ways to capitalize on these cues. The modern study of the placebo effect started in 1955, with a scholarly paper by Harvard physician Dr. Henry Beecher, titled "The Powerful Placebo." Beecher reviewed 15 studies of conditions such as pain, anxiety and seasickness and concluded that, on average, about one-third of the people in the studies benefited from sham medicine. More recent studies have reported sometimes greater, sometimes lower, percentages of responders, depending to some extent on the medical condition. Debates about placebos continue to simmer. Some scientists argue that the placebo effect doesn't exist or has been greatly exaggerated — that the effects of sham medicines can be explained away by, for example, faulty statistics or health improvements that would have occurred anyway. Other scientists suggest (also controversially) that the placebo's clout can be impressively strong. A 1998 analysis of 19 clinical trials of antidepressants concluded that nearly half of these drugs' efficacy is linked to the placebo effect. Brain imaging studies have lent credence to the placebo effect as a real physiological phenomenon. For example, in two studies published in 2002, clinically depressed patients who responded to placebos showed dramatic changes in activity in the same areas of the brain that respond to antidepressants: the prefrontal cortex and the cingulate cortex. (The nature of these changes wasn't identical in those who took medicine versus placebo.) Other imaging studies have shown that the prefrontal cortex is active during the placebo response. This is the same part of the brain that lights up when you try to make yourself feel better or worse — rather as if the placebo response is similar to your ability to cheer yourself up, to regulate your mood if you've had a bad day by telling yourself that things aren't so terrible. "Things like pain don't just happen to you; your brain has to interpret the meaning and value to you," says Tor Wager, a psychologist at Columbia University in New York and author of some of the brain-scanning research. "Those circuits are partly under our control. The placebo is a way to [control] it beyond what we can do voluntarily." Studies are also revealing the chemical changes that occur when placebos are given to people. A study by Dr. Jon-Kar Zubieta of the University of Michigan in August showed that sham injections of pain medicine blocked pain by activating the brain's natural painkillers, known as endorphins. (Scientists are now doing studies to see whether sham injections or sham pills work better for treating pain.) In a report by University of British Columbia researchers published in 2001, Parkinson's patients given a fake treatment (and who experienced improvements in tremors and other symptoms) exhibited a change similar to that seen with drugs used to treat the condition: an increase in the brain chemical dopamine. Scientists don't know how placebos trigger the release of these substances. One theory holds that we learn to respond to placebos much like Pavlov's famous dogs learned to salivate at the sound of a bell signaling dinner. Initially, our bodies may respond to a specific pain medication by releasing molecules — such as endorphins in the brain. But as we begin to associate the pill or doctor with that analgesic response, our brains may learn to respond to these factors rather than to the medication. Doctor-patient interaction Regardless of the mechanism, the responses can be impressive enough to make some patients and doctors wonder why our bodies have self-healing properties that are so hard to tap on demand. In earlier decades, U.S. doctors would routinely harness them — simply by ordering fake pills from medical supply houses and prescribing them to their unsuspecting patients. Doctors in some other countries still do this. An Israeli survey published in the British Medical Journal last year found that 60% of doctors surveyed used placebos, with 30% of users prescribing placebos once a month or more. Another survey found that nearly 50% of Danish doctors had regularly used placebos. In the U.S. these days, however, placebos are used only in clinical trials to test new drugs. But researchers are hoping that the pills themselves aren't needed. They point to alternative medicine treatments, such as acupuncture, that they suspect are effective largely because of the hope they engender and the elaborate interaction between patient and healer. Acupuncture sessions last longer than a typical doctor's appointment, and practitioners discuss patients' symptoms and lifestyle at length. A large-scale trial of acupuncture for migraines published in May in the Journal of the American Medical Assn. showed that real and sham acupuncture treatments both could cut migraine pain as much as popular drugs, implying that the key to the treatment's successes doesn't depend on the precise placement of a needle — or perhaps on any needle at all. "We're learning that the context under which healthcare is delivered, such as how doctor interacts with patient, is important," says Ted Kaptchuk, an assistant professor of medicine at Harvard Medical School. Mack, whose depression improved while she was taking a placebo, thinks that these scientists are on the right track. "A lot of what was great about the study was that I was having sympathetic people spend time with me on a weekly basis," Mack says. "I'm sure that had a profound effect." Scientists are now trying to quantify those effects. At UCLA, Dr. Andrew Leuchter, vice chairman of the department of psychiatry, is leading a federally funded study to more precisely measure the importance of doctor-patient interaction in self-healing. In it, 140 people with major depression will receive one of three treatments during a nine-week period. Some will get an antidepressant pill plus regular evaluations and interactions with doctors and nurses; others will get the evaluations but no antidepressant, just a sugar pill. The third group will get only the evaluations — no pill, fake or real. The patients will be assessed for their mood, their anxiety levels and their day-to-day functioning. Their brains will be scanned and monitored for changes. The goal will be to find out whether merely visiting the clinic makes a patient feel better and, if so, how much of a contribution it makes. "One of the major unanswered questions is the role of interpersonal interaction," Leuchter says. "If the doctor and patient get along better, is the patient more likely to improve and more likely to show a placebo response?" Faith and expectations A patient's level of expectation may also be a key factor in enhancing the placebo response. Last year, Leuchter's group showed in a small study that people with depression who expressed strong faith that an antidepressant drug would help them responded better under therapy than patients whose faith was less strong. Building on this feeling of faith, he suspects, may be a fast route to helping patients heal themselves. Some researchers are already trying to put the power of the placebo into practice: Brown gives occasional seminars to doctors on how to do this. The key, he says, is to accentuate the many elements that make a visit to a doctor special and powerful-seeming — such as the knowledge that one is visiting a recognized healing authority, the careful discussion of ailments, and all those medical office accouterments such as the white coat, stethoscope, weigh scales, medical diplomas and busy nurses bustling down hallways. Research has shown that if doctors write down instructions (say, to exercise regularly) on a prescription pad instead of plain paper, the patient is more likely to follow a directive. Research has also shown that patients with unspecific chest pain fared better when given simple diagnostic tests in addition to merely discussing the symptoms with the doctor. Talking the right way about treatments is key, Brown says. "Doctors should give people an appropriate and optimistic expectation about their treatment," he says. "For example, say, 'This is a powerful painkiller' rather than 'This may help.' " On the flip side, care should also be taken to be honest about but not overemphasize possible side effects. Studies show that cancer patients who expect to suffer nausea with chemotherapy are more likely to experience it. Doctors aren't suggesting we toss out our real pills. Placebo effects are said to fade away over time, whereas a drug would continue to work. And the placebo effect seems mostly to help for conditions such as pain and mood disturbances in which there is a strong subjective component to symptoms. But the doctors do hope that ultimately the placebo effect can be harnessed to enhance the effectiveness of a wide array of conventional treatments. "What we're doing is trying to reconfigure the science of medicine and the art of medicine," Kaptchuk says. "The pendulum has gone way to science, but the placebo is about the healing context … how that remedy gets communicated to the patient."
Reed Abelson & Stephanie Saul, New York Times- 12/17/2005 Dr. Eric J. Topol, a cardiologist, has been perhaps the most public face of the prestigious Cleveland Clinic Foundation, a prominent medical center regarded as one of the nation's best. Not shy in the media spotlight, Dr. Topol has cultivated the persona of a Naderesque crusader against drugs he deems dangerous, as well as their makers. Some of his most impassioned criticism has been aimed at Merck and its drug Vioxx, the painkiller the company withdrew from the market over questions about its safety. But he has also been outspoken recently about other drugs. Now, Dr. Topol's bluntness -- refreshing to his admirers, startlingly unscientific to his targets and his critics -- has drawn a bright spotlight to his own conduct and that of the Cleveland Clinic. In the last month, he has been demoted and the clinic's image has been tarnished in what has become an unusually public dispute pitting him against the clinic's chief executive, Dr. Delos Cosgrove. Cara Anna, Associated Press- 12/18/2005 ITHACA, N.Y. -- Janie Cisneros was having a crisis, and she needed to talk to a counselor. But there would be no embarrassing or intimidating visit to the campus clinic. Instead, Sigrid Frandsen-Pechenik took Cisneros to the mall, where they had coffee and talked in English and in Spanish. It was not the usual approach to mental health counseling. But as campuses become more diverse, colleges are finding that the old ways do not always work. There are language barriers, as well as cultural stigmas, that equate mental health problems with being weak or crazy. There are the pressures of immigrant families who send their children to college, and who do not expect to see them fail. And since Sept. 11, there are pressures over visas, homeland security, and privacy. Many students choose not to ask for help, counselors say. So Frandsen-Pechenik, who is the assistant director of counseling and psychological services at Cornell University, is part of a national effort to take counseling out of the office and to bring it closer to students. The idea is to break from the traditional model of trips to the counseling center, scheduled appointments, and 50-minute sessions, which have their own built-in stresses. Counselors at the Cornell, an Ivy League university in Ithaca, hold group talks such as ''The Joys and Challenges of Being Other Than Caucasian at Cornell," and they also have drop-in sessions at the international student center, the engineering school, and at various other spots. ''There's a lot of shame" in going to the counseling center, said Cinthia Tejada, a senior from New York. ''But with outreach, it's not like you're singling yourself out." A report this year by the American Council on Education found more diverse campuses from 1991 to 2001. Hispanic enrollment rose 75 percent; that of Asian-Americans increased 54 percent; that of blacks grew 37 percent. In a lecture this spring, a counselor, Wai Kwong Wong, said Asian and Asian-American students accounted for 50 percent of suicides in the past decade at Cornell. At present, Asians and Asian-Americans make up just 17 percent of enrollment. Richard Kadison, chief of mental health services at Harvard University, said minorities and foreigners have a particularly tough time in college. ''I've worked with many Asian students who have had a hard time finding a language to talk about mental health concerns, and it is something that just isn't discussed in their families," he said. At Cornell, the outreach includes multilingual sessions and culture-specific marketing. Cornell literature promotes Frandsen-Pechenik as the school's ''very own Latina psychologist." The effort is taking hold around the country. This year, the University of Florida recruited a psychiatrist who speaks several Chinese dialects to join a staff that includes a Spanish speaker. The Massachusetts Institute of Technology's counseling center offers monthly Chinese Tea Time group sessions. And an online ''Ask Dr. Xi" service will begin next semester for Asian and other international students. Last month, black colleges and universities met in Baltimore to discuss marketing campaigns to help black students overcome a stigma attached to counseling. And in New Jersey, Rutgers University's counseling center sponsored an Asian film series, with discussions afterward. ''We thought it would be a nonthreatening approach," said David Chandler, a counseling director at Rutgers University in New Brunswick.
Kurt Eichenwald, New York Times- 12/19/2005 The 13-year-old boy sat in his California home, eyes fixed on a computer screen. He had never run with the popular crowd and long ago had turned to the Internet for the friends he craved. But on this day, Justin Berry's fascination with cyberspace would change his life. Weeks before, Justin had hooked up a Web camera to his computer, hoping to use it to meet other teenagers online. Instead, he heard only from men who chatted with him by instant message as they watched his image on the Internet. To Justin, they seemed just like friends, ready with compliments and always offering gifts. Now, on an afternoon in 2000, one member of his audience sent a proposal: he would pay Justin $50 to sit bare-chested in front of his Webcam for three minutes. The man explained that Justin could receive the money instantly and helped him open an account on PayPal.com, an online payment system. "I figured, I took off my shirt at the pool for nothing," he said recently. "So, I was kind of like, what's the difference?" Justin removed his T-shirt. The men watching him oozed compliments. So began the secret life of a teenager who was lured into selling images of his body on the Internet over the course of five years. From the seduction that began that day, this soccer-playing honor roll student was drawn into performing in front of the Webcam - undressing, showering, masturbating and even having sex - for an audience of more than 1,500 people who paid him, over the years, hundreds of thousands of dollars. Justin's dark coming-of-age story is a collateral effect of recent technological advances. Minors, often under the online tutelage of adults, are opening for-pay pornography sites featuring their own images sent onto the Internet by inexpensive Webcams. And they perform from the privacy of home, while parents are nearby, beyond their children's closed bedroom doors. The business has created youthful Internet pornography stars - with nicknames like Riotboyy, Miss Honey and Gigglez - whose images are traded online long after their sites have vanished. In this world, adolescents announce schedules of their next masturbation for customers who pay fees for the performance or monthly subscription charges. Eager customers can even buy "private shows," in which teenagers sexually perform while following real-time instructions. A six-month investigation by The New York Times into this corner of the Internet found that such sites had emerged largely without attracting the attention of law enforcement or youth protection organizations. While experts with these groups said they had witnessed a recent deluge of illicit, self-generated Webcam images, they had not known of the evolution of sites where minors sold images of themselves for money. "We've been aware of the use of the Webcam and its potential use by exploiters," said Ernest E. Allen, chief executive of the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children, a private group. "But this is a variation on a theme that we haven't seen. It's unbelievable." Minors who run these sites find their anonymity amusing, joking that their customers may be the only adults who know of their activities. It is, in the words of one teenage site operator, the "Webcam Matrix," a reference to the movie in which a computerized world exists without the knowledge of most of humanity. In this virtual universe, adults hunt for minors on legitimate sites used by Webcam owners who post contact information in hopes of attracting friends. If children respond to messages, adults spend time "grooming" them - with praise, attention and gifts - before seeking to persuade them to film themselves pornographically. The lure is the prospect of easy money. Many teenagers solicit "donations," request gifts through sites like Amazon.com or negotiate payments, while a smaller number charge monthly fees. But there are other beneficiaries, including businesses, some witting and some unwitting, that provide services to the sites like Web hosting and payment processing. Not all victims profit, with some children ending up as pornographic commodities inadvertently, even unknowingly. Adolescents have appeared naked on their Webcams as a joke, or as presents for boyfriends or girlfriends, only to have their images posted on for-pay pornography sites. One Web site proclaims that it features 140,000 images of "adolescents in cute panties exposing themselves on their teen Webcams." Entry into this side of cyberspace is simplicity itself. Webcams cost as little as $20, and the number of them being used has mushroomed to 15 million, according to IDC, an industry consulting group. At the same time, instant messaging programs have become ubiquitous, and high-speed connections, allowing for rapid image transmission, are common. The scale of Webcam child pornography is unknown, because it is new and extremely secretive. One online portal that advertises for-pay Webcam sites, many of them pornographic, lists at least 585 sites created by teenagers, internal site records show. At one computer bulletin board for adults attracted to adolescents, a review of postings over the course of a week revealed Webcam image postings of at least 98 minors. The Times inquiry has already resulted in a large-scale criminal investigation. In June, The Times located Justin Berry, then 18. In interviews, Justin revealed the existence of a group of more than 1,500 men who paid for his online images, as well as evidence that other identifiable children as young as 13 were being actively exploited. In a series of meetings, The Times persuaded Justin to abandon his business and, to protect other children at risk, assisted him in contacting the Justice Department. Arrests and indictments of adults he identified as pornography producers and traffickers began in September. Investigators are also focusing on businesses, including credit card processors that have aided illegal sites. Anyone who has created, distributed, marketed, possessed or paid to view such pornography is open to a criminal charge. "The fact that we are getting so many potential targets, people who knowingly bought into a child pornographic Web site, could lead to hundreds of other subjects and potentially save hundreds of other kids that we are not aware of yet," said Monique Winkis, a special agent with the Federal Bureau of Investigation who is working the case. Law enforcement officials also said that, with the cooperation of Justin, they had obtained a rare guide into this secluded online world whose story illuminates the exploitation that takes place there. "I didn't want these people to hurt any more kids," Justin said recently of his decision to become a federal witness. "I didn't want anyone else to live the life I lived." A High-Tech Transformation By the mid-1980's, however, technology had transformed the business, with pedophiles going online to communicate anonymously and post images through rudimentary bulletin board systems. As Internet use boomed in the 1990's, these adults honed their computer skills, finding advanced ways to meet online and swap illegal photos; images once hard to obtain were suddenly available with the click of a mouse. As the decade drew to a close, according to experts and records of online conversations, these adults began openly fantasizing of the day they would be able to reach out to children directly, through instant messaging and live video, to obtain the pornography they desired. Their dream was realized with the Web camera, which transformed online pornography the way the automobile changed transportation. At first, the cameras, some priced at more than $100, offered little more than grainy snapshots, "refreshed" a few times per minute. But it was not long before easy-to-use $20 Webcams could transmit high-quality continuous color video across the globe instantly. By 2000, things had worked out exactly the way the pedophiles hoped. Webcams were the rage among computer-savvy minors, creating a bountiful selection of potential targets. Among them was Justin Berry. That year, he was a gangly 13-year-old with saucer eyes and brown hair that he often dyed blond. He lived with his mother, stepfather and younger sister in Bakersfield, Calif., a midsize city about 90 miles north of Los Angeles. Already he was so adept at the computer that he had registered his own small Web site development business, which he ran from the desk where he did his schoolwork. So Justin was fascinated when a friend showed off the free Webcam he had received for joining Earthlink, an Internet service provider. The device was simple and elegant. As Justin remembers it, he quickly signed up, too, eager for his own Webcam. "I didn't really have a lot of friends," he recalled, "and I thought having a Webcam might help me make some new ones online, maybe even meet some girls my age." As soon as Justin hooked the camera to his bedroom computer and loaded the software, his picture was automatically posted on spotlife.com, an Internet directory of Webcam users, along with his contact information. Then he waited to hear from other teenagers. No one Justin's age ever contacted him from that listing. But within minutes he heard from his first online predator. That man was soon followed by another, then another. Justin remembers his earliest communications with these men as nonthreatening, pleasant encounters. There were some oddities - men who pretended to be teenage girls, only to slip up and reveal the truth later - but Justin enjoyed his online community. His new friends were generous. One explained how to put together a "wish list" on Amazon.com, where Justin could ask for anything, including computer equipment, toys, music CD's or movies. Anyone who knew his wish-list name - Justin Camboy - could buy him a gift. Amazon delivered the presents without revealing his address to the buyers. The men also filled an emotional void in Justin's life. His relationship with his father, Knute Berry, was troubled. His parents divorced when he was young; afterward, police records show, there were instances of reported abuse. On one occasion Mr. Berry was arrested and charged with slamming Justin's head into a wall, causing an injury that required seven staples in his scalp. Although Justin testified against him, Mr. Berry said the injury was an accident and was acquitted. He declined to comment in a telephone interview. The emotional turmoil left Justin longing for paternal affection, family members said. And the adult males he met online offered just that. "They complimented me all the time," Justin said. "They told me I was smart, they told me I was handsome." In that, experts said, the eighth-grade boy's experience reflected the standard methods used by predatory adults to insinuate themselves into the lives of minors they meet online. "In these cases, there are problems in their own lives that make them predisposed to" manipulation by adults, Lawrence Likar, a former F.B.I. supervisor, said of children persuaded to pose for pornography. "The predators know that and are able to tap into these problems and offer what appear to be solutions." Justin's mother, Karen Page, said she sensed nothing out of the ordinary. Her son seemed to be just a boy talented with computers who enjoyed speaking to friends online. The Webcam, as she saw it, was just another device that would improve her son's computer skills, and maybe even help him on his Web site development business. "Everything I ever heard was that children should be exposed to computers and given every opportunity to learn from them," Ms. Page said in an interview. She never guessed that one of her son's first lessons after turning on his Webcam was that adults would eagerly pay him just to disrobe a little. The Instant Audience Gradually the requests became bolder, the cash offers larger: More than $100 for Justin to pose in his underwear. Even more if the boxers came down. The latest request was always just slightly beyond the last, so that each new step never struck him as considerably different. How could adults be so organized at manipulating young people with Webcams? Unknown to Justin, they honed their persuasive skills by discussing strategy online, sharing advice on how to induce their young targets to go further at each stage. Moreover, these adults are often people adept at manipulating teenagers. In its investigation, The Times obtained the names and credit card information for the 1,500 people who paid Justin to perform on camera, and analyzed the backgrounds of 300 of them nationwide. A majority of the sample consisted of doctors and lawyers, businessmen and teachers, many of whom work with children on a daily basis. Not long ago, adults sexually attracted to children were largely isolated from one another. But the Internet has created a virtual community where they can readily communicate and reinforce their feelings, experts said. Indeed, the messages they send among themselves provide not only self-justification, but also often blame minors with Webcam sites for offering temptation. "These kids are the ones being manipulative," wrote an adult who called himself Upandc in a posting this year to a bulletin board for adults attracted to children. Or, as an adult who called himself DLW wrote: "Did a sexual predator MAKE them make a site? No. Did they decide to do it for themselves? Yes." Tempting as it may be for some in society to hold the adolescent Webcam operators responsible, experts in the field say that is misguided, because it fails to recognize the control that adults exercise over highly impressionable minors. "The world will want to blame the kids, but the reality is, they are victims here," said Mr. Allen of the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children. But there is no doubt that the minors cash in on their own exploitation. With Justin, for example, the road to cyberporn stardom was paved with cool new equipment. When his growing legion of fans complained about the quality of his Webcam, he put top-rated cameras and computer gear on his Amazon wish list, and his fans rushed to buy him all of it. A $35 Asante four-port hub, which allowed for the use of multiple cameras, was bought by someone calling himself Wesley Taylor, Amazon receipts show. For $45, a fan nicknamed tuckertheboy bought a Viking memory upgrade to speed up Justin's broadcast. And then there were cameras - a $60 color Webcam by Hawking Technologies from banjo000; a $60 Intel Deluxe USB camera from boyking12; and a $150 Hewlett-Packard camera from eplayernine. Justin's desk became a high-tech playhouse. To avoid suspicions, he hid the Webcams behind his desk until nighttime. Whenever his mother asked about his new technology and money, Justin told her they were fruits of his Web site development business. In a way, it was true; with one fan's help, he had by then opened his own pornographic Web site, called justinscam.com. His mother saw little evidence of a boy in trouble. Justin's grades stayed good - mostly A's and B's, although his school attendance declined as he faked illness to spend time with his Webcam. As he grew familiar with the online underground, Justin learned he was not alone in the business. Other teenagers were doing the same things, taking advantage of an Internet infrastructure of support that was perfectly suited to illicit business. As a result, while it helped to have Justin's computer skills, even minors who fumbled with technology could operate successful pornography businesses. Yahoo, America Online and MSN were starting to offer free instant message services that contained embedded ability to transmit video, with no expertise required. The programs were offered online, without parental controls. No telltale credit card numbers or other identifying information was necessary. In minutes, any adolescent could have a video and text system up and running, without anyone knowing, a fact that concerns some law enforcement officials. There were also credit card processing services that handled payments without requiring tax identification numbers. There were companies that helped stream live video onto the Internet - including one in Indiana that offered the service at no charge if the company president could watch free. And there were sites - portals, in the Web vernacular - that took paid advertising from teenage Webcam addresses and allowed fans to vote for their favorites. Teenagers, hungry for praise, compete for rankings on the portals as desperately as contestants on TV reality shows, offering special performances in exchange for votes. "Everyone please vote me a 10 on my cam site," a girl nicknamed Thunderrockracin told her subscribers in 2002, "and I will have a live sleep cam!" In other words, she would let members watch her sleep if they boosted her up the rankings. Fearing the Fans They call themselves "camwhores." Justin chatted with the boys online, and sometimes persuaded the girls to masturbate on camera while he did the same. Often, he heard himself compared to Riotboyy, another young-looking teenager whose site had experienced as many as 6,400 hits in a single week. In conversations with Justin, other minors with for-pay sites admitted to being scared of certain fans. Some adults wrote things like "It wants to possess you." They had special wardrobe requests for the adolescents: in jeans with a belt, without a belt, with a lacy bra, showing legs, showing feet, wearing boxers with an erection, and others. One 16-year-old who called himself hot boyy 23 finally found the entreaties too much. "Hey guys," he wrote when he shut down his site, "I'm sorry, there are just too many freaks out there for me. I need to live a more normal life, too. I might be back someday and I might not. I'm sorry I had to ruin all the fun." It was not only the minors operating Webcam sites for pay who faced frightening adults. Earlier this year, a teenage girl in Alabama posed seminude on her Webcam in a sexually charged conversation with someone she thought was another teenage girl. But her new confidant, it turned out, was an adult named Julio Bardales from Napa, Calif., law enforcement officials said. And when the girl stopped complying, she received an e-mail message from Mr. Bardales containing a montage of her images. Across them was a threat in red letters that the images would be revealed unless she showed a frontal nude shot over the Webcam. Mr. Bardales was subsequently arrested. The police said he possessed images of more under-age girls on Webcams, including other montages with the same threat. Justin says that he did not fully understand the dangers his fans posed, and before he turned 14, he was first lured from the relative safety of his home. A man he met online hosted Justin's Web site from Ann Arbor, Mich., and invited him there to attend a computer camp. Justin's mother allowed him to go, thinking the camp sounded worthwhile. Another time, the man enticed Justin to Michigan by promising to arrange for him to have sex with a girl. Both times, Justin said, the man molested him. Transcripts of their subsequent conversations online support the accusations, and a video viewed by The Times shows that the man, who appears for a short time in the recording, also taped pornography of Justin. From then on, Justin's personality took on a harder edge, evident in the numerous instant messages he made available to The Times. He became an aggressive negotiator of prices for his performances. Emboldened by a growing contempt for his audience, he would sometimes leave their questions unanswered for hours, just to prove to himself that they would wait for him. "These people had no lives," Justin said. "They would never get mad." Unnerved by menacing messages from a fan of his first site, Justin opened a new one called jfwy.com, an online acronym that loosely translates into "just messing with you." This time, following an idea suggested by one of his fans, he charged subscribers $45 a month. In addition, he could command large individual payments for private shows, sometimes $300 for an hourlong performance. "What's in the hour?" inquired a subscriber named Gran0Stan in one typical exchange in 2002. "What do you do?" "I'll do everything, if you know what I mean," Justin replied. Gran0Stan was eager to watch, and said the price was fine. "When?" he asked. "Tonight," Justin said. "After my mom goes to sleep." As his obsession with the business grew, Justin became a ferocious competitor. When another under-age site operator called Strider ranked higher on a popular portal, Justin sent him anonymous e-mail messages, threatening to pass along images from Strider's site to the boy's father. The site disappeared. "I was vicious," Justin said. "But I guess I really did Strider a favor. Looking back, I wish someone had done that to me." By then, fans had begun offering Justin cash to meet. Gilo Tunno, a former Intel employee, gave him thousands of dollars to visit him in a Las Vegas hotel, according to financial records and other documents. There, Justin said, Mr. Tunno began a series of molestings. At least one assault was videotaped and the recording e-mailed to Justin, who has since turned it over to the F.B.I. Mr. Tunno played another critical role in Justin's business, the records show. When he was 15, Justin worried that his mother might discover what he was doing. So he asked Mr. Tunno to sign an apartment lease for him and pay rent. Justin promised to raise money to pay a share. "I'll whore," he explained in a message to Mr. Tunno. Mr. Tunno agreed, signing a lease for $410 a month for an apartment just down the street from Justin's house. From then on, Justin would tell his mother he was visiting friends, then head to the apartment for his next performance. Mr. Tunno, who remains under investigation in the case, is serving an eight-year federal sentence on an unrelated sexual abuse charge involving a child and could not be reached for comment. The rental symbolized a problem that Justin had not foreseen: his adult fans would do almost anything to ensure that his performances continued. At its worst, they would stand between him and the people in his offline life whom they saw as a threat to his Webcam appearances. For example, when a girlfriend of Justin's tried to convince him to shut down his site in December 2002, a customer heaped scorn on her. "She actually gets mad at you for buying her things with the money you make from the cam?" messaged the customer, a man using the nickname Angelaa. "Just try and remember, Justin, that she may not love you, but most of us in your chat room, your friends, love you very much." A Life Falls Apart Feeling embarrassed and unable to continue at school, Justin begged his mother to allow him to be home-schooled through an online program. Knowing he was having trouble with classmates, but in the dark about the reasons why, she agreed. Then, in February, came another traumatic event. Justin had begun speaking with his father, hoping to repair their relationship. But that month, Mr. Berry, who had been charged with insurance fraud related to massage clinics he ran, disappeared without a word. Despairing, Justin turned to his online fans. "My dad left. I guess he doesn't love me," he wrote. "Why did I let him back in my life? Let me die, just let me die." His father did not disappear for long. Soon, Mr. Berry called his son from Mazatlán, Mexico; Justin begged to join him, and his father agreed. In Mexico, Justin freely spent his cash, leading his father to ask where the money had come from. Justin said that he confessed the details of his lucrative Webcam business, and that the reunion soon became a collaboration. Justin created a new Web site, calling it mexicofriends, his most ambitious ever. It featured Justin having live sex with prostitutes. During some of Justin's sexual encounters, a traffic tracker on his site showed hundreds watching. It rapidly became a wildly popular Webcam pornography site, making Justin one of the Internet's most sought after under-age pornography stars. For this site, Justin, then 16, used a pricing model favored by legitimate businesses. For standard subscribers, the cost was $35, billed monthly. But discounts were available for three-month, six-month and annual memberships. Justin used the cash to support a growing cocaine and marijuana habit. Money from the business, Justin said, was shared with his father, an accusation supported by transcripts of their later instant message conversations. In exchange, Justin told prosecutors and The Times, his father helped procure prostitutes. One video obtained by the F.B.I. shows Mr. Berry sitting with Justin as the camera is turned on, then making the bed before a prostitute arrives to engage in intercourse with his teenage son. Asked about Justin's accusations, Mr. Berry said, "Obviously, I am not going to comment on anything." In the fall of 2003, Justin's life took a new turn when a subscriber named Greg Mitchel, a 36-year-old fast food restaurant manager from Dublin, Va., struck up an online friendship with the boy and soon asked to visit him. Seeing a chance to generate cash, Justin agreed. Mr. Mitchel arrived that October, and while in Mexico, molested Justin for what would be the first of many times, according to transcripts of their conversations and other evidence. Mr. Mitchel, who is in jail awaiting trial on six child pornography charges stemming from this case, could not be reached for comment. Over the following year, Justin tried repeatedly to break free of this life. He roamed the United States. He contemplated But his drug craving, and the need for money to satisfy it, was always there. Soon, Mr. Mitchel beckoned, urging Justin to return to pornography and offering to be his business partner. With Mr. Mitchel, records and interviews show, Justin created a new Web site, justinsfriends.com, featuring performances by him and other boys he helped recruit. But as videos featuring other minors appeared on his site, Justin felt torn, knowing that these adolescents were on the path that had hurt him so badly. Justin was now 18, a legal adult. He had crossed the line from under-age victim to adult perpetrator. A Look Behind the Secrecy They met in Los Angeles, and Justin learned that the man was this reporter, who wanted to discuss the world of Webcam pornography with him. After some hesitation, Justin agreed. At one point, asked what he wanted to accomplish in his life, Justin pondered for a moment and replied that he wanted to make his mother and grandmother proud of him. The next day, Justin began showing the inner workings of his online world. Using a laptop computer, he signed on to the Internet and was quickly bombarded with messages from men urging him to turn on his Webcam and strip. One man described, without prompting, what he remembered seeing of Justin's genitals during a show. Another asked Justin to recount the furthest distance he had ever ejaculated. Still another offered an unsolicited description of the sexual acts he would perform on Justin if they met. "This guy is really a pervert," Justin said. "He kind of scares me." As the sexual pleadings continued, Justin's hands trembled. His pale face dampened with perspiration. For a moment he tried to seem tough, but the protective facade did not last. He turned off the computer without a final word to his online audience. In the days that followed, Justin agreed in discussions with this reporter to abandon the drugs and his pornography business. He cut himself off from his illicit life. He destroyed his cellphone, stopped using his online screen name and fled to a part of the country where no one would find him. As he sobered up, Justin disclosed more of what he knew about the Webcam world; within a week, he revealed the names and locations of children who were being actively molested or exploited by adults with Webcam sites. After confirming his revelations, The Times urged him to give his information to prosecutors, and he agreed. Justin contacted Steven M. Ryan, a former federal prosecutor and partner with Manatt, Phelps & Phillips in Washington. Mr. Ryan had learned of Justin's story during an interview with The Times about a related legal question, and offered to represent him. On July 14, Mr. Ryan contacted the Child Exploitation and Obscenity Section of the Justice Department, informing prosecutors that he had a client with evidence that could implicate potentially hundreds of people. By then, Mr. Ryan had learned that some of Justin's old associates, disturbed by his disappearance, were hunting for him and had begun removing records from the Internet. Mr. Ryan informed prosecutors of the dangers to Justin and the potential destruction of evidence. Two weeks passed with little response. Finally, in late July, Justin met in Washington with the F.B.I. and prosecutors. He identified children who he believed were in the hands of adult predators. He listed the marketers, credit card processors and others who supported Webcam child pornography. He also described the voluminous documentary evidence he had retained on his hard drives: financial information, conversation transcripts with his members, and other records. But that evidence would not be turned over, Mr. Ryan said, until Justin received immunity. The meeting ended, followed by weeks of silence. Word came back that prosecutors were wrestling with Justin's dual role as a victim and a perpetrator. Justin told associates that he was willing to plead guilty if the government would save the children he had identified; Mr. Ryan dissuaded him. By September, almost 50 days had passed since the first contact with the government, with no visible progress. Frustrated, Mr. Ryan informed prosecutors that he would have to go elsewhere, and contacted the California attorney general. That proved unnecessary. Prodded by the F.B.I. and others in the Justice Department, on Sept. 7, prosecutors informed Mr. Ryan that his client would be granted immunity. A little more than four weeks after his 19th birthday, Justin became a federal witness. A Final Online Confrontation Ever since Justin's disappearance weeks before, things had been tense for Mr. Mitchel. Some in the business already suspected that Justin might be talking to law enforcement. One associate had already declared to Mr. Mitchel that, if Justin was revealing their secrets, he would kill the boy. But this night, Sept. 12, the news on Mr. Mitchel's computer screen was particularly disquieting. An associate in Tennessee sent word that the F.B.I. had just raided a Los Angeles computer server used by an affiliated Webcam site. Then, to Mr. Mitchel's surprise, Justin himself appeared online under a new screen name and sent a greeting. Mr. Mitchel pleaded with Justin to come out of hiding, inviting the teenager on an all-expense-paid trip to Las Vegas with him and a 15-year-old boy also involved in Webcam pornography. But Justin demurred. "You act like you're in witness protection," Mr. Mitchel typed. "Are you?" "Haha," Justin replied. Did Mr. Mitchel think he would be on the Internet if he was a federal witness? he asked. Justin changed the subject, later asking the whereabouts of others who lived with Mr. Mitchel, including two adolescents; Mr. Mitchel replied that everyone was home that night. In a location in the Southwest, Justin glanced from his computer screen to a speakerphone. On the line was a team of F.B.I. agents who at that moment were pulling several cars into Mr. Mitchel's driveway, preparing to arrest him. "The kids are in the house!" Justin shouted into the phone, answering a question posed by one of the agents. As agents approached the house, Justin knew he had little time left. He decided to confront the man who had hurt him for so long. "Do you even remember how many times you stuck your hand down my pants?" he typed. Mr. Mitchel responded that many bad things had happened, but he wanted to regain Justin's trust. "You molested me," Justin replied. "Don't apologize for what you can't admit." There was no response. "Peekaboo?" Justin typed. On the screen, a message appeared that Mr. Mitchel had signed off. The arrest was over. Justin thrust his hands into the air. "Yes!" he shouted. In the weeks since the first arrest, F.B.I. agents and prosecutors have focused on numerous other potential defendants. For example, Tim Richards, identified by Justin as a marketer and principal of justinsfriends.com, was arrested in Nashville last month and arraigned on child pornography charges. According to law enforcement officials, Mr. Richards was stopped in a moving van in his driveway, accompanied by a young teenage boy featured by Mr. Richards on his own Webcam site. Mr. Richards has pleaded not guilty. Hundreds of thousands of computer files, including e-mail containing a vast array of illegal images sent among adults, have been seized from around the country. Information about Justin's members has been downloaded by the F.B.I. from Neova.net, the company that processed the credit cards; Neova and its owner, Aaron Brown, are targets of the investigation, according to court records and government officials. And Justin has begun assisting agents with Immigration and Customs Enforcement, who hope to use his evidence to bring new charges against an imprisoned child rapist. Justin himself has found a measure of control over his life. He revealed the details of his secret life to his family, telling them of all the times in the past that he had lied to them. He has sought counseling, kept off drugs, resumed his connection with his church and plans to attend college beginning in January. In recent weeks, Justin returned to his mother's home in California, fearing that - once his story was public - he might not be able to do so easily. On their final day together, Justin's mother drove him to the airport. Hugging him as they said goodbye, she said that the son she once knew had finally returned. Then, as tears welled in her eyes, Justin's mother told him that she and his grandmother were proud of him.
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